The Day I Decided to Quit Killing Myself
Let me start by saying I LOVE smoking. That is a horrible fact to let in especially with today’s stigma attached to the subject but I really do enjoy it.
So this story starts about 38 years ago when I was just a young boy. My parents were 70s kids and they grew up in a time where smoking was normal and socially accepted. Everyone smoked and you could smoke anywhere you went the grocery store, the restaurant where you were eating dinner, work and already the doctor’s office. Heck already the doctor was probably smoking in the visit with you.
Now I was about 5 or 6 years old and my parents smoked around me and I hated it. I just could not stand the smell of the smoke and I hated smelling like smoke all the time. I would gripe and moan begging them to stop telling them it was nasty and making me sick and of course they would respond with the normal parental response of “quit your bitching”. I remember one time I was nevertheless really young but I had gotten into my mother’s purse and decided I was going to make her quit. So I grabbed her pack of “Marlboros” and I was going to show her and I threw them in the toilet and just left them floating there. Well my mom found them like that and she was furious at me. I probably got called every name in the book but at the end of it all she calmed down and talked to me about it. She said “it really bothers you that bad huh?” Well I just told her that it was gross and stinky and didn’t like going to school and smelling like smoke all day. She agreed it was a nasty habit and that she would try to quit. Well of course like many people who “try to quit” it didn’t really work. A associate of months after this event my mom found out that she was pregnant with what I was sure was my little brother and when she found out she was pregnant she looked at me and said “I will grant you your wish” and she never smoked again. Following my mother’s rule Mt dad already decided to quit smoking and to this day they have never smoked again.
Fast forward about 10 years. I was about 15 or so and I knew by this point I had an addictive personality already if I didn’t know what that was at the time I knew that I tended to over indulge in anything I found enjoyable. One day I was riding my bike along a highway(small town highway) and I found a pack of cigarettes that must have accidentally been dropped.by someone. I picked them up already though I had never had any interest in smoking I thought I was cool with those things in my pocket. You might be thinking to yourself that must be when he started smoking but you would be wrong. I kept that pack of cigarettes hidden in my room for months and every once in a while I would get them out and look at them and smell them and already act like I was smoking but I knew better than to ever truly light one up because I knew I wouldn’t be able to stop once I started and remember all those years ago how nasty my parents smelled because of those things.
Years went by and I resisted the urge to join all my friends and all the “cool kids” and start smoking. I worked in restaurants where people smoked and took cigarette breaks while I was left working but I refused to smoke so I would take air breaks 5 minute breaks where I would walk away like everyone else but but I wouldn’t smoke I would just stand there and breathe. One day I guess I was about 19 to 20 years old I was coming back from a trip to Louisville KY with a friend and he was smoking and I said oh to heck with it I am going to try one and just see what all the hype was about. From that first hit of that cigarette. Marlboro Menthol Lights I was hooked. My nerves seemed to calm and I was relaxed and just felt satisfaction.
So for the next 18 years I was an avid smoker. Smoking anywhere from 1 pack to 2 packs daily. I had to have my cigarettes already choosing to smoke over eating at times because I couldn’t provide to buy both food and cigarettes.
I got married about a year and a half ago and my wife is a non-smoker now she doesn’t really gripe at me about smoking and she has always helped ease my own murder. Recently however she had begun to get frusterated with my smoking worried that it was going to cost me an early life so she has been asking me to quit and grumping at me about it every chance she gets.
Six months ago I decided she was right I was paying 6-7 dollars a day just to KILL myself and I had to make a change. I knew I was never going to be able to just quit cold turkey so I started doing some online research. I found all kinds of advise on how to quit and what all these other people had tried, gums and lozenges, patches and hypnosis. After a number of failed attempts I learned about Vaping. I ran across a website that told me all about this new different to smoking called Vaping where people had these contraptions that took this juice and when you hit them you blew out these large clouds of vapor. I read a lot about the products and the benefits and the downfalls. Some will say it’s worse than smoking some will say it isn’t as bad but it’s nevertheless horrible. After all my research I have found that overall vaping is far better for you than cigarettes. Tabacco is sprayed with tons of carcinogens and arsonic along with a multitude of other deadly chemicals and then rolled into a cigarette and lit on fire. That just sounds horrible already.
So I decided I was going to switch. Learning that many people switched to vaping and little by little took the nicotene out of the juice they buy or make.
Once I had decide to switch I nevertheless needed to find the right Vape or Mod as I found out they are called. So I went online again and started searching for the best website with the best products. That’s when I found http://www.directvapor.com/?A=1516. They had everything you could imagine. All types of different products ranging from beginner to progressive Vaper. At first I chose a starter kit that had everything I needed to get started vaping and give up those nasty cigarettes. I purchased that kit it was a SMOK POCKET VAPE. The service with Direct Vapor was excellent meaning the checkout was easy signing in was a breeze and I already got in during a sale and got my product at a exceptional price. The prices there are already lower that anywhere else I could find. Then shipping was exceptional. I placed my order and closest received a confirmation email that reviewed my order and let me know that as soon as my order was shipped that I would receive a tracking email. Keep in mind I ordered my first MOD from them at like 5:30pm on a Monday night. By first thing Tuesday morning I had received my tracking info meaning my package was already shipped just that quick. Since that first order of business have been back lots and lots of times. I have decided the Vaping is the way to go for me. So I have ordered a number of different products including new and bigger MODs but also e-juices their choices are excellent in addition as some tool kits and items to create some of my own MODS and each and every time I have ordered from Direct Vapor my experience has been noticeable. I would recommend them to anyone anytime for third vaping needs.
Now I have decided to take action of my own to help others the way I was helped by creating an all inclusive sight that gives people information of how to switch or how to quit. It gives suggestions on what products you will need to quit and not switch and provides direct links to those products. It also provides information on switch to vaping and has links to some of the more popular products and the best part is that it’s truly a forum.for people to proportion their stories and build a community of sustain for one another. The websites name is http://www.vapeslingerz.siterubix.com. The reason for the subdomain is because this is a free site I have built just to help people along their journey and hopefully one day become a substantial business that can grow and help more struggling QUITTERS along the way.
Here are some links if you to want to take the journey to a healthier life.